::First Snow::

So, yesterday while I was teaching 5th grade Language Arts it started to snow. Of course the kids were really excited, however they did not jump around or go crazy. I was so surprised. So I kept teaching and finally class was over. An hour later I had 5th & 6th for History. The snow kept falling and the ground was completely covered. The kids kept looking outside of the window from their seats. Finally, as we had 10 minutes left I decided to get all my snow gear (which is like none) in the hallway. I walked in my class and told the kids to get their gear on in a deep voice?? I don't know why I said it such a weird voice, but the kids screamed and ran to their lockers and got dressed. They had so much fun running around and playing the cold snow. I love these guys!

Super Excited!!!

::First Field Trip... Horn's Point::

So, yesterday I went on my first field trip with 5th-8th grade. It was fun and a lot more hmmmm outdoor stuff. You know me I like to be outside if I am playing a sport and that is about it. So, it was an adventure for me and the kids. I did have fun and I learned a lot. Here is a photo of the students and some of the things we encountered.

5th-8th grade

Painting leaves for leaf pressing

We have NO idea what this is....

:::Photoshop Fun:::

So today I got bored and was tired of packing soooooo I thought I would learn to do more girlie things to my photos.




Asheton Leigh

Mike & Erin

:::Rebecca Hail:::

Jared & Mary

Congrats to Jared & Mary. Here are a few from tonight.






I love Jared's hair!



The color is odd in this picture, but I kinda like it.

Lee & Catherine

:::something new::::

:::excited:::

Wow, it's been awhile!

I am so excited that soon I will be finishing college and moving to Maryland. Currently I am waiting patiently to hear back from some schools I interviewed at during spring break. So I am praying that I will be getting a teaching job soon! =D

I am looking into graduate schools as we speak. For a while now I've said that I want to get my Masters in Elementary Education. Well now I also want to get my Doctorates. So we will see how the next few weeks and year pan out.

Oh and Joe was accepted in Maryland Trooper School Academy Application Process. He is not in the school yet, but was accepted into the process. He heads to DC Sunday for his fitness exam and cognitive exam. They don't want any crazy people on the force. And the only thing Joe is crazy about is me! =D Ha.

Okie dokie! I need to finish packing for Emmaus! So excited not to have a cellphone or computer for 4 days.

=D

:::Not moving to California:::

So Joe and I are not moving to California. Just some hiccups came up and we decided to change our paths.

But on a good note, we are looking at jobs in Northern Virginia and Maryland.

So far we have had no success with jobs in Northern Virginia. But in Maryland we have some good job offers.

=D

At the moment, I am applying to private Christian schools, and Joe is applying to Troopers school. He has decided to become a state trooper.

So will all of this happen??? Who knows. But we are looking at places to live! And of course I found a couple sweet places!

Joe heads up to Maryland in a few weeks for Orientation, then back home for a week. Then we both head back up for apartment tours and a few job interviews.

Exciting!!!

Prayer Prayer Prayer Prayer

:::What hurts the most makes you stronger:::

This past month has been an emotional roller coaster, during the time of Christmas everyone is suppose to be cheerful and giving. And I would have to say I was faking the cheerful and hated my gift that was taken away.

I was given the news from 3 little pee sticks that I was pregnant. How far a long? I had no idea, all I knew that I was so excited!!! It is funny how things were planned that week, I had a doctors appt already planned in three days. So for three days, I thought I was going to be a mom, for three days I was planning the life of my son or daughter and for three day I was the happiest I think I have ever been. Obviously marrying Joe was a great and a happy moment, but this happiness was different. I went to the doctors and told them that I took a test and I wanted them to take a blood test. Waiting for the results was so aggravating, but the doctor came back and said yup your pregnant. Then she asked me if they can do an ultrasound just to make sure. I am now glad I said yes, because within a couple moments of reading her facial expression and how she said "hmmm" I could tell that something was not right. Something was wrong, I had a miscarriage. The explain the baby was older than a month but less than two months, and they kept sharing more painful details. I did not cry, I just stared and did not know what to say. For within an hour I went from being happy, crazy excited then depressed.

From their on, I kept this all a secret. I didn't want Joe to be depressed and upset, I didn't want my parents to be disappointed in us getting pregnant, I thought people would be so judgmental because we are still young and in college. This was not a planned event, we are not planning on trying to have babies until we move to California or later.

Finally letting Joe and my family know about everything, was probably the best thing I could of done. But it hurt so much having to admit the lost, because then it became real. That was the last thing I wanted this to become, real.

It took a couple weeks, a couple friend visits, a lot of city wine celler lunches for me to be told to grieve the lost but you can't let this loss bring down your life. I have taken everyone's advice and I am finally moving on. I have one last thing I want to do before closing this door, so I receive closure.

All I know is that one day Joe and I will be parents and we will be great parents, and they will have great aunts and uncles, and great grand-parents. I look forward to the day when I am blessed with kids from God.

I love my husband, he is great. Everyone should be jealous. =D

2010 Bucket List

So this year, I wrote a bucket list for this year. I would have to say my list is not crazy selfish or just random events, it would be events that I have been wanting to complete but just a little scared.

Snowboarding/Skiing

Primitive Camping

Eat Healthier

Paintball

Spiritual Growth

Ice Skating

Hand Gliding

1 weekend excursions every month

Community Service

Ready, Set, Gooooooooo!

:::Last Week::::

One exam left, and now it time to celebrate Christ and his birth.

So ready for December Cheer!!!!!!!!

::::one of those::::::

Today was one of those days where I just observed the people that surrounded me.

All I saw was a lot of negativity, seriously for a hour all I heard was complaining, whining, bickering, and arguments. It was disappointing, however eye opening because I saw things in myself and others I don't think I would of seen if I wasn't just listening.

I learned that I, well I am a positive person. Joe and I try not to be a "debbie downer" when a problem arises. We try to find a way to fix the problem or just to find something positive. Always being negative makes life depressing and miserable. And, I learned that I make my own situations grow or disintegrate. If that makes any sense, I cause most of my problems... But others don't see it that way, today someone was blatant that the reason they could not get their homework done was because of spending time with friends, "trying to be social" they put it. No, no, no noooo sir. We are adults, we can avoid/fix problems, however we rather blame someone else rather than say, "Goodness I am an idiot, I should of done my homework before class." College, and just life in general is about mistakes and learning about your mistakes. However, I think some people would rather blame someone else and they will never learn.

Just tired of the negitivity and bulllllll crap.

WOW

Life is changing, and changing fast. It is exciting and scary all within the same moment. However, I believe I will be ready for the change, even though it will be a little difficult at first. But worth it in the end.

I would have to say that Joe and I have had to make a lot of grown up choices at the time. We have finally hit a fork in the road. If we bear left, we know exactly how our life will be for the next 5, 10 or 2o years. But if we bear right, we could have an adventure in our life together that I think we would never come across again.

We are bearing right, life is crazy and so are times. I mean we have known since we got married we were going to be paying for two student loans and eventually have to get another car. And how the economy is today, we really have been praying for something to come our way to help ease the pressure of loans. And wow something came, out of the blue... Which was scarrrry. But God works crazy fast and has a plan. Even though this was not something I thought would never happen but we are ready.

We will be leaving a lot, which is weird for me to say. I mean I have been raised in a military family all my life. I have moved every 2-4 years, I have never really had good relationships with friends until I came to college. I mean I never had the time to build them, and I did not want to build relationship especially when I knew my butt was going to be gone in a year. But I would have to say it is different for me to care to make every moment with my friends like it could be the last. That was weird for me to even write. I mean I never have cared until the past couple years even months.

Everything is changing, and I like it. I mean nothing is happening tomorrow, but when summer starts to approach that is really when everything will be changing.

Oh and by the way no I am not pregnant... I just had to say that because everyone always thinks I am, and I am not. =D One day, not any time soon.

whatever

I feel like I am in a battle within myself right now. I love being active within the school, but this year I feel like I am having to bite my tongue more and more recently. Just the hypocrisy is really bothering me everyday. I will see someone around campus or in the city and I just cringe inside. I know within life that I will be surrounded by corruption, especially in the church. But I would think as Christians we try our best not to be fake and admit our sins. I am just tired of being told to watch my tongue, which is why I think I have a careless attitude towards people and aljfkjda people. I want to care, but I don't. I care about my hubby, me, school, and etc. But others, oh well if the truth hurts, you needed to know. I think whenever I leave school, I can just drop that attitude but right now it seems to be grafted into me. I want to just call them out, however that would be wrong, mean and just un-Christ like. So I cannot even win within myself.

On even a more depressing note, I am going to be stuck in college another year. I am ready to graduate and be done with undergrad work. I want to start my career and live a life with less drama. I mean drama will be every where but I am just tired of it.

:::::when one door closes, I pray one will open:::::

Joe & I are list people, calendars and planners. We always have a back up plan however usually we never have to use plan B. Today I think was the first time we have ever had to think to use plan B.

So Joe found out today, that because of his blood pressure medicine that he is suppose to take daily permits him from joining the Navy as a chaplain. Which he was not happy about and me oh I was not happy about at all. I think I am more scared then mad. IDK. Usually you can get a wavier for medicine, but he is suppose to take it everday, he doesn't. But rules are rules.

Plan B is Joe becoming a game warden, which means he needs to a degree in criminal justice. Well he is giddy about getting his masters in criminal justice, and possibly joining the police force. He loves to hunt, fish and law. Also, Joe will be getting his Masters in counseling, and then his doctorates. But first he has agreed to get the GW stuff started first then work towards another degree. I love him.

I am always prepared for things to fall through at work, but in life. UH! It is so hard to see your plan change so quickly and out of the blue. =( At least I have God & my hubby, I just pray that God will still shine his light on the path we are suppose to take. I will be applying to grad school soon, and Joe is already applying to grad school as well. I guess we will see what comes, I hope it is more good news.

It's in God's hands, not mine.

I want to do photography.... Don't see it happening anytime soon. =(

:::::Changes::::::

Woah,

In a few weeks school starts back up, and I am excited. I am only have one year left at MACU/ECSU, it is a bitter sweet situation. But I am ready for it to get started. It is crazy how much my life and views have changed in four years. I think I have became a stronger woman, with the experiences I have gone through.

Everything is changing and I think we are following the path of God. It is exciting and scary, but we are ready. So far, all we have is a pile of paperwork for Joe to fill out to become a Navy Chapalian, and grad school. As for me, I have no idea where I will be going to grad school, I might stay at ECSU because they have all my information and everything is offered online. Really, Joe and I have been looking at JBC, WBC, LU, and UST. IDK. So far we keep praying and God is slowly pointing us on the right route.

:Practice:

practice practice practice
what can i say i need more
got all summer