whatever

I feel like I am in a battle within myself right now. I love being active within the school, but this year I feel like I am having to bite my tongue more and more recently. Just the hypocrisy is really bothering me everyday. I will see someone around campus or in the city and I just cringe inside. I know within life that I will be surrounded by corruption, especially in the church. But I would think as Christians we try our best not to be fake and admit our sins. I am just tired of being told to watch my tongue, which is why I think I have a careless attitude towards people and aljfkjda people. I want to care, but I don't. I care about my hubby, me, school, and etc. But others, oh well if the truth hurts, you needed to know. I think whenever I leave school, I can just drop that attitude but right now it seems to be grafted into me. I want to just call them out, however that would be wrong, mean and just un-Christ like. So I cannot even win within myself.

On even a more depressing note, I am going to be stuck in college another year. I am ready to graduate and be done with undergrad work. I want to start my career and live a life with less drama. I mean drama will be every where but I am just tired of it.

:::::when one door closes, I pray one will open:::::

Joe & I are list people, calendars and planners. We always have a back up plan however usually we never have to use plan B. Today I think was the first time we have ever had to think to use plan B.

So Joe found out today, that because of his blood pressure medicine that he is suppose to take daily permits him from joining the Navy as a chaplain. Which he was not happy about and me oh I was not happy about at all. I think I am more scared then mad. IDK. Usually you can get a wavier for medicine, but he is suppose to take it everday, he doesn't. But rules are rules.

Plan B is Joe becoming a game warden, which means he needs to a degree in criminal justice. Well he is giddy about getting his masters in criminal justice, and possibly joining the police force. He loves to hunt, fish and law. Also, Joe will be getting his Masters in counseling, and then his doctorates. But first he has agreed to get the GW stuff started first then work towards another degree. I love him.

I am always prepared for things to fall through at work, but in life. UH! It is so hard to see your plan change so quickly and out of the blue. =( At least I have God & my hubby, I just pray that God will still shine his light on the path we are suppose to take. I will be applying to grad school soon, and Joe is already applying to grad school as well. I guess we will see what comes, I hope it is more good news.

It's in God's hands, not mine.

I want to do photography.... Don't see it happening anytime soon. =(

:::::Changes::::::

Woah,

In a few weeks school starts back up, and I am excited. I am only have one year left at MACU/ECSU, it is a bitter sweet situation. But I am ready for it to get started. It is crazy how much my life and views have changed in four years. I think I have became a stronger woman, with the experiences I have gone through.

Everything is changing and I think we are following the path of God. It is exciting and scary, but we are ready. So far, all we have is a pile of paperwork for Joe to fill out to become a Navy Chapalian, and grad school. As for me, I have no idea where I will be going to grad school, I might stay at ECSU because they have all my information and everything is offered online. Really, Joe and I have been looking at JBC, WBC, LU, and UST. IDK. So far we keep praying and God is slowly pointing us on the right route.

:Practice:

practice practice practice
what can i say i need more
got all summer

:Ugh:

So I went to ECSU to pay the rest of my account for summer classes, assuming my scholarship was sent over and I had a little to nothing payment to make, well I was so wrong. Supposedly, my scholarship still has not came to ECSU. And, they have this strict policy for summer classes, if your money is not paid before the first day of class then you are not enrolled for the summer. I totally understand this policy and agree with it, however I am just mad that my scholarship still has not been sent to the aid office. I have only one week left until classes start, and if I don't take these classes then I won't be able to graduate this coming May.

I just want to cry.

::Going Digital Today::

So today I played outside again, mainly because I have a project due Thursday and since my film was ruined I had to go digital today and get some shots.